When Owen he was very calm for about five minutes. He was on a mission then to not go to baseball because of the rain and I was fine with his mission even though they were still going to have it indoors. In the realm of overthinking this is at the top of the hill for me.
Since baseball would be inside this time it would change everything about it next time and the snowball effect would be like an avalanche that would change everything from this point forward. I wasn’t prepared for all the changes that could or would or might or maybe happen if we went to a different location when it was raining. There were too many variables with this and he kept asking to go straight to grandma’s house so I agreed.
We got ready and headed to his grandma’s house. Before we even left the house he wasn’t listening to instructions but he wanted to go. It is hard when he wants to do something but he can’t process that he has to do the steps to leave. I try to give them to him one at a time but it is still hard for him. In the car, he was focusing on telling me what to do and that he was not going to pull my hair. He talks about the behaviors he is not supposed to do but wants to do to get my attention.
He did fine with his grandma and requested pizza for dinner even though he ate everything else but pizza. He always asks for something when he is there but generally, he likes to eat turkey and sandwiches so he is full by the time it is dinner.
On the way home it was back to talking about behaviors and I told him that he wouldn’t have his tablet tomorrow if he pulled my hair. As soon as we got to the house he pulled my hair before we could get out of the car. He said he was sorry immediately but he was looking for my reaction. The actions and reactions of both of us are what he is trying to process. It is very emotional and I know one day he will understand more.
The night was full of behaviors and responses to everything that he did. I know that he is making more connections but it is still hard knowing that he wants to do certain behaviors because he likes the reactions.
The calmer I am the calmer he is. He is ready for church and so am I. I’m hoping sleep finds him again and this time finds me as well. I’m thankful for his laughter. Follow your heart and know that you can change the world. Smiles to all and donut daze!