He had two plans at that point, to get his tablet and for me to stay in the “white bed.” He did not want to be disturbed. I think some mornings he needs those calm moments to start his day and I am all for it. He would come to me occasionally to ask a question but otherwise, he was focused on his tablet and the cereal I gave him.
When it was time to get ready he asked for five more minutes. I told him he would have more time after we got dressed. I want to give ourselves plenty of time to get dressed because it always seems like something slows us down. And today was no exception. He didn’t put his shoes on. I am trying to give him independence with that so I asked him if he put them on instead of watching him put them on. He didn’t put them on. This is why I always give us extra time.
Before he left on the bus he told me we were staying home today. As soon as he got off the bus and before he ran to his spot to watch the bus drive away he told me again we were staying home. I can take a hint. There are days he needs that. As soon as we walked in the door he went to the bathroom, got his tablet, sat at the kitchen table, and said, “Chocolate milk please.” The dude wanted his snack and he was ready.
The night was mostly calm except the repetitive words were in full swing. He was also talking a lot about his therapy on Thursday and going to school on Friday. That became his theme for the before bedtime hour that we work on being calm. The more I worked on us being calm the more worked up he got. Insert bath time here. I was hoping that would help and it did until it was bedtime. He turned off the timer so he could have extra time before bed and then started screaming about wanting five more minutes. He screamed for about five more minutes, stopped, went to the bathroom, got in bed, and then continued to yell about seeing his teacher on Friday even though he would see her tomorrow and Thursday. His screaming stopped and he was almost instantly asleep. I would say he wore himself out.
I’m not quite sure why he was so focused on Friday but he was and I haven’t told him yet that we are going to his doctor for his wellness check Friday morning. He will be very excited about this but I always like to wait to tell him in case anything changes. I pray he sleeps through the night and wakes up happy for his Wednesday.
I’m thankful that today was a better day for me. Each day that goes by I feel myself getting stronger for my chemo infusion next week. I am ready for number four. Owen laughed a lot tonight as he asked Alexa for translations in all the languages. He amazes me with how many things he has stored in his mind. In the days you are surrounded by questions remember the answers will come and you will continue to grow in those moments. Believe in yourself and the rest will follow. Smiles to all and donut daze!