Owen slept until 6:43! I only got up once and I was determined not to get out of bed until he woke up so I wouldn’t make any noise. I could hear him coming to me with his great news. “Slept upper night get to go to church big boy mommy three hours go to church,” he said. I don’t think he knows how much time we had left until we left for church but I’ve said that so many times I think he said it because of me or maybe he is starting to grasp it.
The “pay attention” directive is going to get me. I have to learn to let it go and know that is how he is processing it. I am trying to teach him how to stay calm in what he thinks are stressful situations but sometimes that leads to stressful situations. I try to remind myself that I am raising an adult as much as he is learning to be a thirteen-year-old. My words mean everything to him and selecting my words to help him grow is very important. But he also has to learn that we are all human and we have to extend kindness and grace to everyone. I was reminded about taking everything one day at a time.
He was asking about everyone from our church and when they are doing things with him. Some friends were now taking him places in March and June. Others have the pick up from school duty. He was so excited about going to church to tell them and he didn’t stop talking about it. He loves his people. I am so thankful for how much they love him too.
My dropsies did not inspire a calm morning right before we were walking out the door for church. I’m trying to show Owen how we can help each other with tasks and chores. This isn’t something he can completely process yet but I do see growth. This is where my own learning experience is part of his growth process. It doesn’t take one, five, or even ten times for him to learn something instead it may take hundreds of times. The daily routine of life does help him to understand what I mean.
Working on tasks is also not as simple as telling him to go do something. Saying “pick up the bag on the floor in front of you” is not always specific enough. He will start looking everywhere and pick up everything but the bag. These are steps I should not try to work on as we are walking out the door, my learning growth is needed too. He has come so far but there is so much more for him to learn.
He had a great time at church. Someone gave him gum and that made his day. He was pretty calm when we got home but definitely wanted me to pay attention. He was processing his days ahead. Monday he has school and then music and vision therapies but the assistant won’t be there so he keeps reminding me that only the doctor will be there. Tuesday he wants everything to go smoothly. I have my infusion that day so I have to take him to school and if it runs late he will have to be picked up from school by his grandma. He loves going with her but all of this throws off his routine so he is torn. We are going to dinner with our friend on Wednesday. He is very happy about that. Thursday he only sees one of his therapists so more processing with that. And we can’t go anywhere Friday night because that goes against routine but we are meeting our new advisor and he is still trying to understand why we have a new one but knows we have a new one. We have a very busy week ahead and it is a lot for him to think about.
He asked me when we are moving to the woods and getting horses and dogs. I had agreed to one part of that statement so I’m not sure where the other part came in but I’m happy he is thinking about it. I pray every day that I find property soon. I am ready to get us moved.
The night was emotional for me thinking about my next infusion on Tuesday. This last one has been the hardest since I had my chemo infusions. I have four more and I pray for strength every day for these last ones. I have to stay strong. I’m thankful Owen had a good day with a side of being thirteen and learning how to push mommy’s buttons. I pray for sleep again tonight for my sweet baby O. His requested tickles came in and the laughter erupted when all I had to do was stick my hands up in the air. And that makes my heart happy. The little moments are the greatest joys in life. Cherish them all. Smiles to all and donut daze!
The “pay attention” directive is going to get me. I have to learn to let it go and know that is how he is processing it. I am trying to teach him how to stay calm in what he thinks are stressful situations but sometimes that leads to stressful situations. I try to remind myself that I am raising an adult as much as he is learning to be a thirteen-year-old. My words mean everything to him and selecting my words to help him grow is very important. But he also has to learn that we are all human and we have to extend kindness and grace to everyone. I was reminded about taking everything one day at a time.
He was asking about everyone from our church and when they are doing things with him. Some friends were now taking him places in March and June. Others have the pick up from school duty. He was so excited about going to church to tell them and he didn’t stop talking about it. He loves his people. I am so thankful for how much they love him too.
My dropsies did not inspire a calm morning right before we were walking out the door for church. I’m trying to show Owen how we can help each other with tasks and chores. This isn’t something he can completely process yet but I do see growth. This is where my own learning experience is part of his growth process. It doesn’t take one, five, or even ten times for him to learn something instead it may take hundreds of times. The daily routine of life does help him to understand what I mean.
Working on tasks is also not as simple as telling him to go do something. Saying “pick up the bag on the floor in front of you” is not always specific enough. He will start looking everywhere and pick up everything but the bag. These are steps I should not try to work on as we are walking out the door, my learning growth is needed too. He has come so far but there is so much more for him to learn.
He had a great time at church. Someone gave him gum and that made his day. He was pretty calm when we got home but definitely wanted me to pay attention. He was processing his days ahead. Monday he has school and then music and vision therapies but the assistant won’t be there so he keeps reminding me that only the doctor will be there. Tuesday he wants everything to go smoothly. I have my infusion that day so I have to take him to school and if it runs late he will have to be picked up from school by his grandma. He loves going with her but all of this throws off his routine so he is torn. We are going to dinner with our friend on Wednesday. He is very happy about that. Thursday he only sees one of his therapists so more processing with that. And we can’t go anywhere Friday night because that goes against routine but we are meeting our new advisor and he is still trying to understand why we have a new one but knows we have a new one. We have a very busy week ahead and it is a lot for him to think about.
He asked me when we are moving to the woods and getting horses and dogs. I had agreed to one part of that statement so I’m not sure where the other part came in but I’m happy he is thinking about it. I pray every day that I find property soon. I am ready to get us moved.
The night was emotional for me thinking about my next infusion on Tuesday. This last one has been the hardest since I had my chemo infusions. I have four more and I pray for strength every day for these last ones. I have to stay strong. I’m thankful Owen had a good day with a side of being thirteen and learning how to push mommy’s buttons. I pray for sleep again tonight for my sweet baby O. His requested tickles came in and the laughter erupted when all I had to do was stick my hands up in the air. And that makes my heart happy. The little moments are the greatest joys in life. Cherish them all. Smiles to all and donut daze!
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