I never know what he is going to want to discuss with me. He stores so much information in that brain of his and never forgets a thing. I’m thankful that he is learning how to express himself and learning more words to be able to communicate his feelings. We got ready and off he went to school.
When he got home he was very happy. His teacher told me that he bit his finger and made it bleed so she put a bandaid on it. The biting of his fingers is a big sensory input for him. When he came home before I even asked he told me it bled and he bit it. I asked him if he was supposed to bite his fingers and he said, “Not tomorrow.” We are working on techniques to try and distract him from these actions and have him work through his emotions.
I had stickers that I was giving to his teacher so when he got home I put them in his backpack. When he saw what they were he got excited. He said, “Stars.” I told him they were for his teacher. He said, “stickers” so I told him that tomorrow he had to tell her that he brought her stickers and get them out of his folder. We worked on the sentence to tell her. I let her know he had something to tell her in the morning. I know he will be able to tell her about them.
I have been telling him about going to the egg hunt at our church but I didn’t tell him it was tomorrow until he came home from school. He said yes that he did want to go but then he kept saying stay home tomorrow. I used to not tell him anything until the moment but that was leading to more meltdowns so now I’m trying to give him more details but he is struggling with wanting to go anywhere but his routine things and attempting to make him do something leads to more meltdowns. Plus, if he doesn’t want to do something there will be no convincing him to even get out of the car.
After he ate his snack he wanted me to sit with him. He kept asking for hugs. I told him all the things he could do at the egg hunt tomorrow but he still didn’t want to hear it. “No egg hunk no egg hunk stay home when you get home from school no egg hunk no egg hunk,” and the chant continued.
All of my emotions buckle themselves into the rollercoaster of life. My heart sits beating faster, waiting for Owen to calm down. He has gone before and loved it but our emotions are all over the map for both of us. We will see what tomorrow brings. I hope he decides he wants to go but I will continue to overthink the process.
I went through the list of options for dinner. “Nope,” he said so I made some pimento cheese crackers and he started licking the cheese off the crackers. Then a car went by and he had to make sure it wasn’t stopping so he raced to the windows and that was that. He then sat on the couch saying “Go to school then stay home.” Now I’m wondering if I should just take him to the fun things and not tell him ahead of time at all. Maybe I should have picked him up from school and drove him around tomorrow. And maybe he’ll change his mind when he gets home. More overthinking will happen and it will all work out as it should.
The night came quickly and more questions came from Owen. He was worried he wasn’t going to see his teacher if he chose to go to the Easter egg hunt. Maybe when his day goes according to plan he will decide he can go. Hopefully, he will sleep tonight and this won’t keep him up. I loved when he sat with me laughing and telling me about his day. Those are the moments that make my heart happy. Let yesterday go and make tomorrow your day to shine. Smiles to all and donut daze!