I pray each day for strength. The days have been rough and I keep praying that my medicine will start working. I was thankful I slept all night, but as the day went on my stomach still wasn’t happy. I was able to eat some food and stay down but it was just hard.
Owen did great all day. He has been so kind and understanding about how I’ve been feeling. We’ve sat together more and played on his tablet. He sings songs with me and he talks about the days ahead. He has been playing the games again that he played when he was so much younger. It amazes me how much he remembers and what he is doing.
He has been working more with translations again. I’m always fascinated with what he requests with his translations. He will sing part of a song and then ask for it to be translated into one of the languages. He laughs and giggles with delight.
We got ready and I took him to my mom‘s house. I’m so thankful for the connection they have and my mom being able to spend so much time with Owen has been listening well throughout the last few days. When we got in the car, he immediately put a seatbelt on And was so well-behaved the entire way there.
He spent the entire afternoon there and I came home and slept. The sleep helped tremendously and I was able to eat some food, but my stomach was still in knots. I have never been able to handle stomach issues and I never imagined that this would be the one thing that is getting me. I actually feel stronger in so many ways and my arthritis hardly has been bothering me at all during the night. Most nights I sleep better except for when the sickness comes.
I went to pick Owen up and once again he was so calm in the car. I’ve been talking to him about my medicine box and how they are trying to get my medicine straight. I want him to understand as much about this journey as he possibly can. So much of it is hard to comprehend, but I am thankful that he can find ways to relate to it.
My hair is still a big issue for him and I’m going to go get another haircut soon since I’m already starting to lose my hair. Today I was sitting on the couch, watching him dance around watching the light reflect around the room, he walked over to me and kept putting his hand on the back of my hair. It’s very short there and he always wants to push it up to see what it does. I know it’s a coping mechanism for him, and I pray every day that he will continue to understand as I lose my hair.
I pray for strength for both of us. I pray for understanding and I pray for health. I hear his laugh, I see his smile, and I feel his heartbeat when he gives me a big hug. That is where I get my strength from and I pray each day for his continued understanding.
He’s counting the days until he can go to school. I know he will be so excited to see that bus pull up and whisk him to his new school. Today was a great day for Owen and today was a rollercoaster for me, but singing the twinkle in his eyes gets me through any hard moment. Find your strength, let go of yesteryear, and let tomorrow be a brand new day. Smiles to all and donut daze!