To Go Thursday

The excitement Owen radiates when he is happy about something is amazing. He couldn’t wait to go to school today. He popped out of my bed, saying his teacher’s name; at some point he snuck into bed with me, and went quickly back to sleep. He was very anxious, but very excited to go to school. Last night, as we were driving to Owen’s church program, I told him to always remember that he is awesome. I went on to say, remember where you have come from, and where you are going. From his carseat, he yells, “church”. Yes baby, that’s where you are going. I’m so excited for his connections. I try to talk to him about everything; explaining our good days, our bad days, and everything in between. I want him to understand that we have to work together through this, and that I’m learning with him. Some days my emotions sit heavier on my heart than others; not being able to process the every day steps my son has to go through. Something that might take another child five, or six times to learn could take my son hundreds, and hundreds of times to learn the steps. He fights some of the processes; not wanting to do things like go to the bathroom, or using utensils. Fine motor skills are really hard for him, yet he can do amazing things on his tablet. Sometimes he wants me to still do the motions, so that he can watch how it is done. He will often stare at his hands, and feet, like he doesn’t realize they are connected, or how they operate. He also doesn’t understand that he has to watch what he’s doing. This morning, as we walking to the bus, he was trying to walk completely sideways with his body, but his feet facing forward. I can’t get him to to watch where he is going; sometimes he will even shield his face, or close his eyes. I know that Owen has changed the way I look at the world. My eyes are more wide open to what’s around me, and I am thankful for all that he has taught me. Believe in yourself, know that you are amazing, and change your world. Smiles to all and donut daze!