To Trek On Thursday

I woke in the early hours with a massive headache. I had a stern talk with my body, telling it we didn’t have time for that. Luckily, Owen slept in his bed all night. It’s hard to explain to him when I don’t feel well. I can’t say to him mommy doesn’t feel well and you need to not scream. He screams all the time. Happy, sad, and in-between he screams. It’s his go-to expressive form. Owen is growing and learning, today proved that. He still screamed, but he was calmer. I laid down on the couch. This in the past has caused Owen to scream, even if I didn’t fall asleep. He wanted me to sit up. And falling asleep would cause him meltdowns. Over the years he has gotten better about me laying down, but today he actually came and laid with me, giving me a “big hug”. And he wasn’t mad at me because I didn’t have my glasses on. Another big step for us. I see the connections being made, right before my very eyes. My headache eased as the morning went on. My emotions run-heavy. I have to remain strong. I have to keep my spirits up. And most of all I have to stay healthy. It’s easy to let the sadness wash over me and win. But I have to push through those moments. There are expectations in life and sometimes life doesn’t go according to plan, but I focus on the positive moments and keep moving forward. Owen’s smile is the bright spot that pushes me through every day. His mischievous laugh and his “wanna hugs” make me know that everything is going to be fine. Every day we grow together. Owen has taught me patience and understanding when I thought I was the one teaching him these things. Life is what we make it, so let’s make it grand. Smiles to all and donut daze!