Some days my emotions sit on a shelf, other days they are in a boat with no oars, and like today floating in and out attached to memories that remind me of how far we have come but yet still emotional. Owen woke around one and got into bed with me. I think he completely bypassed his tablet and came straight to me. He slept, he actually slept all night long. He didn’t wake until after eight and then he was in a great mood. I hugged him and said, “I love you with all my” and waited to see what he would say. He said, “you are my world” and then he said, “hearty.” It all works for me. I just want him to know I love him and he is my world. He was watching tv and he wanted me to “sit right here.” He always asks me to sit and watch one of the shows with him. It’s always the same ten seconds and he wants me to tell him the character has eyeballs, not eyebrows. Then he said, “it’s a circle it’s a donut” looking at the alarm clock on the next screen. He then said what I was expecting. He told me it had eyebrows and he watched the character again. He wanted to wear his Spider-Man mask and his yellow glasses to church. Who am I to interfere with Spider-Man’s wishes so he wore exactly what he wanted to? He saw one of the ladies and she she was in grey pants. He told her to wear a dress tomorrow. This was progress. He didn’t scream at anyone. He finally took off his mask in the elevator at church. He did great and wanted to go to the tractor when we left but it was raining. I told him we could come another day. I realized the tractor Goofy is riding is red so that is probably why he likes the red one best. He told me he was getting a tent so he could sit in it. He told me again that grandma was going to order it and marshmallows were involved. He wanted to make sure there was a fire pit. He told me he wanted a map of the desert from Mickey Mouse Clubhouse and a pizza. He said, “order it.” I think he is getting the hang of this now but I hope he understands we can’t get everything he wants. Now to teach him that lesson. The night went fast but it was emotional for me. I can’t tell you how many charger cords we have broken in the last few months. Seems like I’ve lost track. This set me off on the emotional journey of just putting his tablet up so he can’t break the charger cords. I need to change how I do his tablets so that it makes it easier on this process as a whole. I guess I’ll save that for a rainy day. Bath time did not go off without a hitch but he was at least happy when he finally took his bath. It sometimes takes longer for him to get in the bath than him in the bath even though he absolutely loves taking a bath. He always asks to take baths but he wants to sit on the couch and avoid bath time because he knows it’s bedtime. He fell asleep telling me he was in the blue bed and he would see his teacher tomorrow. Even though I felt like the rollercoaster was taking over today it was more about my emotions and what has been going on. I’m thankful for his smile, his songs, and his laughter. Find your happiness and know that you matter. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.