When we got ready he did almost everything I asked him to do right away. We went out to wait for the bus and he was extremely calm. He asked me a few questions but he wasn’t repeating it every second. He started jumping up and down and immediately came to stand by me when it got close to us. He got right on the bus. No questions, no comments, no delays. You can’t even imagine how thankful I am for one moment in time when he just gets on the bus without it being difficult for him. My heart was so happy for him.
When he got home he started talking to me on the sidewalk about being in middle school, riding the bus, and who he was going to see the rest of the week. The best part was he gave me three separate kisses. I always kiss him on his forehead or his cheek. He usually leans his forehead in for me to kiss him but he kissed my cheek and forehead this time. It was such an incredible gift. He had given me a hug when he walked up to me and then to have the conversation and kisses were incredible.
He got very upset when he started thinking he was going back to elementary school. He is constantly concerned that he won’t be in middle school. Yesterday his vision doctor wrote on the board that he was in middle school. We repeated it with him because he was getting very upset about it during his session. He does not want to go back to elementary school even though he loved it he gets very confused about how he is continuing to move forward. He was screaming about being all done with elementary school. He has been having more meltdowns over it. I reminded him about his doctor writing it on the board and that was what finally moved him forward.
When he has a meltdown it can end quickly or it can last for hours. Sometimes he will have meltdowns about things that happened years ago. He may process them quickly or he may bring up why he was upset for hours, days, or even weeks after an episode happened. He still has meltdowns over a lady and her dog that stood on a corner near our house. It has been years since she stood on the corner and yet it still triggers meltdowns for him. I never imagined how many things could upset my sweet baby O or cause him to be so emotional. My heart hurts from how hard it can be on him. And on this mommy.
He got his towel and wrapped it on his head after his bath. I was shocked. He sat next to me after his bath, chewing gum, and talking about taking his teacher’s scissors while watching a video on how to cut with them. I told him he had to give up his gum when he got ready for bed. Thankfully the rest of the night he remained calm.
Bedtime was still the rollercoaster it is most nights but he was ready for a good day tomorrow. I will cling to the laughter and focus on the good stuff. My boy gave me three kisses and a hug. That is something I will always cherish. Let today be the day to believe in yourself and the rest will follow. Smiles to all and donut daze!