The first time he got up I convinced him to go back to his room without his tablet. This is truly not the wisest of choices because generally he comes back fully ready to have his voice heard and the screaming begins. I wish he could do it with a little less finesse and screaming. Round two I sent him on his way with his tablet but he didn’t listen to any of my other instructions about going back to bed. And round three I think he may have woken everyone in the neighborhood up.
Kindness and grace were a big topic of our discussions off and on for the next few hours. I told him that I didn’t appreciate him yelling at me. I always want him to understand that talking is a better way for us to treat each other. I could tell he understood that he didn’t need to yell. He told me he was sorry. In a little while he came to me and said, “Dear God thank you for Owen” and he added Mommy. It touched my heart. He doesn’t always know how to express himself but I can tell he was processing it all.
I think he has been hyper-focused on his schedule and it is making everything harder for him. Any and every change is hard for him to process. He is very sad he doesn’t get to go to summer school this year. He asks me daily about it. He can’t always get past the disappointment when something he wants doesn’t happen it causes the spiral effect.
I was in very slow motion all morning. He wanted to go to see his grandma but I had to completely wake up before I was going to take him. He started asking when we were going at two in the morning and didn’t stop asking for almost eight hours. Finally, we were off. We stopped for a light and he started to scream. I reminded him of our kindness and grace conversation from the morning. Thankfully he didn’t scream anymore.
He stayed with his grandma for several hours and then we met for me to pick him up. He wanted to go a certain way home but he wanted to go the long way. I went with most of his choices but he wanted to keep going. I told him we were heading home. I still wait for the screams but thankfully he didn’t. He used to scream and have huge meltdowns if I didn’t go the way he was expecting. It still happens but not nearly as much as it did even a year ago.
He was very calm when he got home. I could tell he was very tired. I prayed that it would translate to the night. He was making sure about his days ahead and wanted to know about church tomorrow. I told him that he had to sleep tonight in order for us to go tomorrow. He had told my mom that he needed to go to church tomorrow. I love that he loves church so much and it is important to him.
He was quiet for the rest of the night and it didn’t take long for him to fall asleep. I’m thankful for the calm and I once again said a prayer hoping he would sleep all night. While he was sitting with me before bedtime he kept repeating that I had a red dress on and wanted to go ride the Ferris wheel in the clouds. He watches one on the Mickey Mouse Clubhouse and now wants to go find one. I hope he has sweet dreams and stays asleep so we can go to church tomorrow. Find your happiness and share your smile with the world. Smiles to all and donut daze!