The day started off rocky. But I saw the most amazing sight. Owen picked up the cut-up portion of his breakfast sandwich as one whole bite. I made him a sausage, egg, and cheese croissant. Usually, he picks at sandwiches and pulls them apart in pieces unless I remind him as he takes every bite to pick it up. He woke by two in the morning and that was that. He was in my face yelling about everything, wanting milk, and he was not going to his room or back to sleep. I stayed in bed listening to his happy screams at the top of his lungs with his tablet and then the tv. He was beside my bed again before I could even consider going to sleep. I was up completely at this point. A few minutes later with coffee in hand, I was ready to forage for food and look for a superhero cape or at least a Spider-Man costume. “Sit right here,” he said. I did. I wanted him as calm as possible today. I didn’t want the rollercoaster of emotions like yesterday. Not every moment of our day is only about him and yesterday, not one thing went the way I wanted it to or thought it would or needed it to. But I learned a lot about myself. And now to find a new pathway. Owen was watching a video on the tv. He’s figured out how to cast a video from his tablet to the tv so he gets it started on his tablet and then puts it on the tv and watches something else on his tablet at the same time. He was watching a recording of a video game on the tv and there was a bear with an outline of lips on his cheek and he said, “it’s a kiss.” I said, “can you give me a kiss on my cheek” and he came to me, looked at the bear, and then kissed my cheek. He is still figuring this out. For the longest time, he always thought a kiss was for me to give him and it could only be on his forehead. As the day wore on I was playing a game with him on his tablet and he took the tablet from me and said, “take a coffee break.” I think he really knew how much I needed it but I laughed because I didn’t think he knew that expression. He was watching a video and he started saying his interpretation of the words. “I so mad I so sad oh no that’s a sad face,” repeating the words over and over. He will then use these phrases when he is trying to communicate with me but they are not always relevant to what we are talking about. I have to connect his words to why he might be saying them or what they mean and he will randomly say words like “elephant” that have no connection to what we are talking about. I didn’t make the laundry mistake today but I did talk about the “blue pants” and how we had to be kind to people that aren’t wearing blue pants. I hope by continuing to talk about kindness it will make a difference with him. We grow, we learn, we love. I’m thankful for his progress today and I pray for a great day for him tomorrow. He doesn’t know it yet but if all goes according to plan he will see his grandma for a few hours tomorrow before his therapy. I have to remind myself of this but keep pushing forward and tomorrow is a brand new day. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.