Some days are an emotional rollercoaster; today has been one for the books. There are things truly beyond my control, but what should be the simplest of things will have my mind spinning for days. I get mad at myself for the things I haven’t accomplished, instead of praising myself for putting one foot in front of the other. I haven’t gotten much sleep the last few nights. Owen has somehow learned how to become a triangle that takes up all four corners of my bed. When I got out of bed this morning, he immediately started yelling at me. I leaned over to kiss him, and told him he could stay in bed, that I was going to the bathroom. In a million years I never realized how the layout of a house could be so hard for my child. The bathroom is in between our bedrooms, this wakes him up, if I have go to the bathroom in the middle of the night. In the mornings, from our bedrooms you can see the lights in the kitchen, this wakes him up. This list goes on, and on. And today was one of those days that everything got him. When we came home this afternoon, I asked Owen if he wanted to go for a ride; that means in his stroller. He said, yes, but I told him we had to go inside first, then we could go. As soon as we walked in the door he took his clothes off. I asked him if he wanted to go for a ride, he said, no. So, hours later, he wants to “go for a ride let’s go for a ride”. The rules were set, he had to finish his dinner first, and then we could go if it was still light outside. Approximately every thirty seconds he asked to go for a ride. We went for a ride. He ate most of his dinner, and I think it was good for us to be out in the night air. Bedtime is fast approaching, and I think we are both ready. He greeted everyone we saw with his trademark grin, and a big “hi”. I’m thankful for my sweet baby O’s smile, it’s what gets me through our days. Today’s emotions are only one step in this journey. Let yesterday go, and focus on the joys of tomorrow. You can make your own sunshine, even through the rain. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.