Owen’s anxiety rocks me to my core sometimes. My sweet baby O gets so upset about certain situations. Routine is everything to him and when we don’t stick to routine it can throw us off for days, weeks, and months later. Last night we went to the bowling alley to get his new ball drilled. We normally don’t go through the week. He wanted to be home. As much as he loves bowling it was still hard for him to process that we were going at a different time. As soon as I picked him up from daycare he started talking about bowling. I had been preparing him for days. But he also kept repeating “momma change”. He wanted us to go home, me sit on that couch, and him run around playing. In the car ride home, he repeated over and over that he wanted me to change. We had to go home for about an hour before our appointment at the bowling alley. I told him that we weren’t going to change. This is where progress meets anxiety. Normally when we walk in our door, off goes his shoes, his socks, and then his shorts. This time that didn’t happen. He left his clothes on, he kept telling me to change, but his clothes were on and he wasn’t pushing me to change, even though he kept talking about it. This was amazing. The drive to the bowling alley consisted of Owen saying, “bowl first and then momma change”. He went on to change the words a little, “after bowling then momma change”. There is so much progress happening with my dude I can’t always keep up. His words are forming and he is figuring out how to change his sentence structure. We got his ball drilled, we bowled, and then we got home and changed. This morning, however, he didn’t want to go anywhere. He kept asking to stay home. And then he would ask for his teacher. The summer is so hard on him. Being out of routine for weeks on end cause his anxiety to soar. My heart breaks for my sweet baby O. In a world that’s ever-changing how do you explain change. I’m proud of Owen and all he is accomplishing. He’s learning to express himself and what he wants. He motivates me every day. Find your motivation and inspiration and go after your dreams. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.