And there it was the change. There’s a video that says “wow wow everyone” and Owen runs to me asking me to find “wow wow everybody”. But today was the day. He switched it. He comes screaming from the other room “wow wow everyone”. I heard him going back and forth between the words, trying hard to say everyone in exchange for everybody. He had learned the word “everybody” from another video he watched and uses it for everything. He only watches about ten seconds of the Wubbzy video, but the smile he has on his face is huge. He moved the video to the exact second he wants and watches it over and over again until he changes it and listens to it in multiple other languages. Then the mix of Spanish, English, and Owen’s own language mix together to form a song like no other that brings an even bigger smile to his face and laughter that moves his whole belly, giving me pretty much the same effect too. I love hearing his words because some days my emotions sit heavy with the sounds he makes. He screams a lot and then will scream, “stop screaming”, laughing the whole time. There are only so many ways to say no without using the word “no”. My words are as important as his words. Not only do they need to reflect exactly what I have to say, but they have to be the perfect words in the right moment. I mistakenly said, “let’s go take your shower”. I meant bath. He’s fine with me taking a shower, but that rookie mistake, as I like to call them, threw us off for over an hour. He cried, he laid on the floor screaming, and then he would run to me yelling, “no shower”. The interesting part is he loves the way the shower flows, I have a little handheld shower sprayer and he loves the input it gives him on his back. He can even use it himself. I remind myself of how far we’ve come and that I can’t be perfect all the time. It’s still hard. I can’t sit on pins and needles, but that’s how it feels waiting for the explosion to come from Owen when my words get us. I am stronger today. I will be stronger tomorrow. There is beauty in the world around you. Take a moment for you and know that you are amazing. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.