Sadness mixed with happiness mixed with a side of “veggie straws pwease” and some more sadness. That pretty much sums up the day from start to finish. Owen doesn’t always know how to explain his emotions. The pandemic still pays a toll on our everyday life. I had his teacher’s picture on our refrigerator. He was getting his milk out and he saw the picture, immediately emotions started. He threw the picture on the ground only to pick it up and try to stick it back on the refrigerator, but trying to hide the faces on it. He doesn’t understand the concept of the magnet so he kept trying to stick it on the refrigerator, but it kept falling to the floor. He screamed. And then he screamed some more. I didn’t try to take it off, but kept it the direction he was holding it and put the magnet on it. That seemed to satisfy him. He walked by it several more times, tilting his head back and forth as he looked at the blank side. He laughed, he cried, he got emotional. So many changes to our lives that I can’t explain to him. It took him three hours to fall asleep tonight, screaming, crying, biting, kicking, hitting his way through the hours to avoid sleep. My heart aches for him. How do you create calm in a world of chaos. I want to cry with him. He struggles with every change. Maybe I do too. He hasn’t had this rough of a night in awhile. I pray for calm. I don’t know what tomorrow will bring and I don’t even know what words to use with him to bring him the comfort he seeks. All I could do tonight was hold him. At one point I told him to “close his eyes”. I always forget how literal he takes this. He reached up to his eyelids with his fingers and closed them. They shot right back open and he screamed again. My heart sank a little more and I prayed for his comfort once again. Tomorrow is a brand new day. Through the rain, the sun will still shine. Don’t let yesterday control your happiness for tomorrow. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.