We made it a little later in the night when Owen woke up. Thankfully, he went back to sleep. Me, not so much. He tossed and he turned and for some reason, my bed is getting smaller and smaller. He immediately wanted to know where his boombox was when he woke up the second time. I had moved it out of his room after he fell asleep holding it. I was serenaded this morning by his favorite songs, starting with, “I’m a little tea part”. His understanding of words and meanings is growing every day, but he also still gets very frustrated when I can’t figure out what he means. I ask him to count to ten with me, trying to calm us both down and I ask him to have patience with mommy. I don’t know if he completely understands what that means, but I remember the first time he said it right back to me. “Patience mommy patience”, he said. This journey is amazing to watch. He didn’t want to leave the house this morning. We have been on the go since his Christmas break started and that totally goes against the routine he thrives on. Every day we go through his schedule until he goes back to school. He wants to know when he will see his teacher again. All I keep thinking about is next year he goes to a new school and a new teacher. I know he will adapt, but his teacher absolutely means the world to him. I’ve told him about the new school, but the concept is not there for him. And I also haven’t found a way to explain it, but keep him from stresses about it for the months leading to the change. For today I’m thinking about how well he did yesterday. Yes, it was hard on him, but he still was able to get through all the emotions of our day and so did I. Every day I pray for calm for him, for me. His smile, his joy, his pain, his accomplishments, and his growth all sit within my soul. Today is one moment in time. Find your strength and keep pushing forward. Smiles to all and donut daze! #autism
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.