It pours when it rains. I can’t tell you how many rollercoaster rides my emotions were on today. And then I bought one. If only life could be calm for one day. One day. It seemed like the ups were very huge stepping stones and the downs threw us back to moments I thought were long gone. Owen’s nine, you would think I could let him play on his own in another room and everything be fine. No, no I can’t. I don’t even want to think about it. So many emotions wrapped up into five minutes of him being alone turning into hours of me cleaning up after him. Knowing why he does something doesn’t make it any less emotional when you feel like potty training has slipped away in seconds. I truly know it hasn’t but it’s still hard. I made a smoothie for breakfast and I asked him to try it. He did. He said, “that's berry yogurt purple”. He took a sip and said, “no thank you”. I was shocked and thought I should have made a chocolate one. I made him a car out of a box so he could watch tv in it. I put little signs on it for the left and right sides. I wanted to work with him on his directions. I told him to say left or right and then I moved him. He stayed in the box for quite a while. I made our lunch and I learned he does not like tomatoes but he kinda likes “white yogurt” otherwise known as cottage cheese. He only wanted a spoon full and then said, “do you like it nope nopedy nope” but ate the rest off the spoon. I ask him lots of questions, do you like vanilla yogurt, chocolate yogurt, or banana yogurt. He first answered “banana yogurt” and then he said, “no chocolate yogurt”. He watches a video that has two seconds of a cartoon pair of bunny slippers. He always stops on it and says “bunny clippers”. I told him I would get him a pair of bunny slippers. I had to try. I like to give him real-world examples of what he sees in videos that he likes. They came in the mail today. He put them on and he stomped around saying “bunny clippers” and laughing, unbelievably giddy. He actually wore them and liked them. The progress from that one moment was huge but then add everything else in and it washes away my sadness. Right before bedtime, he was watching a video with another rollercoaster in it. This time it was dogs. He ran to his rollercoaster and then the box it came in. He said, “dogs in a box come”. Well, this momma got right on Amazon and there it was. Thankful it wasn’t a Lamborghini and I added it to my cart. It should be here by Wednesday. I’ve waited years for my baby to ask me for things and if I can get it for him I will. I keep wondering how many tiny little rollercoasters he’ll have. Earlier he asked me to sing his scales with him. He said, “ahh” in his singsong tone and I knew what he meant. There’s hope in his joy and that puts a song in my heart. Find the song in your heart and share it with the world. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.