A thousand times I asked a thousand questions and I was ignored a thousand times. Okay, so it was probably ten times and Owen was not so much ignoring me as he may not have been able to process that I was asking him a question or that he needed to respond to me. Any which way it can be emotional. And then he walked up and licked my arm. He used to do that all the time. He’d walk up, lick my face or my arm, and walk away. What’s old is new again. It’s a sensory need I’m sure, but here I sit in my own emotions. He got mad at me because he wanted me to find a video with the voice-activated option, but he wasn’t saying any words and he wasn’t opening the microphone. Instead, he was pointing to a blurry picture of a video. He already had it on the screen and he wanted me to find the exact same thing. I try to explain to him if he has it open that he doesn’t need me to find it, but that was met with more screams. He does this constantly. He loves the voice-activated command, but doesn’t understand yet that it can translate his words if he says them clearly. In general, we’ve had a good day, except the extra high pitched squeals that have come randomly throughout the day, more than normal. I know he is still trying to process why we aren’t doing the activities that he loves. He started watching videos of the songs he sings at church. I was happy that he requested help finding them. He gets so excited when we talk about church and pray. I’m thankful that he loves going to church and that he is starting to understand the importance of prayer. I am excited to see his growth and every day is a gift with him. Through our struggles and challenges, I learn and grow. He keeps me on my toes, but his smile lights up the world and makes it a better place. Let the challenges of today wash away in the successes of tomorrow. Find your strength and know that you can do great things in our ever-changing world. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.