I wanted to run every single stoplight to get to my baby. I knew I had to go slow, I knew I had to still follow all the rules but I also knew what Owen was going through. His bus broke down on the way home. The aide called to tell me where they were. The mechanics were on the way to the bus but Owen would not be able to handle all the waiting and the stress of the routine change so I went to meet them. He loves the bus. He absolutely loves the bus. And he absolutely has a hard time when something doesn’t go according to the plan or routine he is comfortable with. When the aide called she let me talk to Owen. I knew how hard this would be on him and I knew how the night would go. The ride home was filled with many emotions and wanting his routine but I could tell they really worked with him until I got there. When we walked in our door he hugged me and said, “I don't see mommy yet” a couple of times. I’m sure those were some of the words they used to reassure him everything was going to be fine. He was upset through the night, very clingy, meltdown after meltdown, biting me, and we were joined at the hip so as the night wore on I said, “I know your day was rough” and before I could go on he said, “dog says ruff train dog to smile”. That’s his new thing he keeps talking about training a dog to smile. I’m not sure where it came from but he has said it multiple times to me. He also randomly blurts out “toaster”. I can’t wait until he can tell me what he means. I know when his words catch up with his emotions it will help us both grow. I told him to always remember we are a team and we will get through all of this together. Find your voice, share your story, and celebrate your victories. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.