How do you explain something is temporary when you don’t see an end in sight or you don’t know when it will end. Last night I watched a very short video of one of Owen’s church friends. I had it on for just a few seconds. He doesn’t handle videos or phone calls well and especially if they are people he knows, but I still thought I would try. The rules and emotions can change so I am always trying to be gentle with his emotions, but also want him to know that people are still around for him. He screamed for several minutes after watching the videos for literally seconds. This morning he said the word “friend”. He quickly followed it up with “I have no friends”. My heart broke in a million pieces. How do I explain to him that we can’t see them right at this moment, but they are still our friends? Since he can’t process any type of video interaction with people it’s hard to show him his friends or people that care about us. I wish I knew how to show him of people he knows without it upsetting him, especially since he watches videos with people in them all day. One day at a time I remind myself. When I picked Owen up from my mom’s he was playing with the neighbor’s dog. He was so excited and totally engaged. He was throwing a frisbee to her but kept dropping it close to himself and the dog would get it. He then was throwing it into the creek for her and she would run down to retrieve it. He kept yelling different things at her like great job, terrific, you do good work, and awesome. It was so wonderful to see him excited about the dog and interactive. It’s memories I will hold close to my heart. When Owen was falling asleep tonight he kept popping up saying, “wanna paint let’s paint”. The rollercoaster ride of emotions strikes again for the day. I was so sad about him not understanding about his friends this morning, but the joys kept coming throughout the day and this momma was moved with happiness. Never give up. What seems like the impossible can quickly change to the possible. Believe and the rest will follow. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.