Owen woke screaming “straight”. I was hoping and praying he wouldn’t keep screaming. I had been awake for what seemed the twentieth time at this point so his screams didn’t wake me but it sure startled me. I had a feeling it was either me or the bus that didn’t go the direction he wanted in his dream and that was what he was screaming about. I think he may have startled himself because he quickly moved to my arms. He started talking about taking the bus and seeing his teacher. He struggles with saying her name and then back to his previous teacher. He won’t see her until August. I go over this with him several times a night, asking him when he will see each of them. When he gets on the bus I always stand next to it, signing “I love you”. The bus driver told me he could see me and was saying “I love you”. It made my heart smile. I was glad he could see me. He wanted to read The Very Hungry Caterpillar with me tonight. He got the book and sat down next to me. I love when he wants to read. He knows most of his books by heart but he still goes through them with me page by page. He kept trying to download an app and then asked for help. I’m not sure how come he needed this app but he has tried to do it for several days. I asked him what he wanted it for and he said so he “could make phone call”. I asked him who he wanted to call and he said, “grandma”. I told him we didn’t have to have the app that we could call her anytime. He said, “no”. He has a hard time processing phone calls and live videos of people he knows. He will scream or get very agitated about them. It’s hard to explain to him why someone is not here yet talking to him. He kept waking himself up before he was completely asleep, talking about his tent and the people he would see tomorrow. Every noise travels through our house waking him quickly. Countless times I thought he was asleep only for him to pop up and start yelling his teacher’s name again. There is so much for him to process and deal with. I pray tonight he gets more sleep. We both need it. That is my prayer, my cry out to God, please let him sleep and have a great day tomorrow. His smile is the victory in every single day. Share your smile. There is always someone that needs to see it. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.