I was in a pillow fight that I didn’t even know I was involved in. Owen got into bed with me, I was too sleepy to notice the time, but then the pillow was pulled out from under my head and he started screaming about “de blanket”. He had his pillow, plus he has a huge U shaped body pillow that we use, but he was still upset. I got the large pillow hoping this would keep him from kicking me and keeping him from rolling to the bottom of the bed. He was really upset about the blanket. I wasn’t fully understanding his concern, which upset him further. We had a blanket on us and he had another one he could use. I finally calmed him down, looking at the clock it was around four. I thought we were done for the night, but in a few minutes, I had feet in my face. He was upset again, this time about my pillow. When I moved his feet he moved my pillow, taking it once again and throwing his to the ground. Breathe Lynn, breathe, I told myself. Trying hard to figure out why he was having such a rough moment. I held him, rocked him in my arms, and he was asleep again. When it was ready to get up he was not. He laid there wanted to sleep still, but I got up, turning the lights on as I moved through the house. He screamed from the bed, “turn de lights offT”. I be-bopped along, trying to stay focused, and keeping the morning moving. I told him that he needed to get up so he could go to school. He stopped screaming, running past me to get to the living room. He loves school. He loves his teacher. And he loves the bus. My heart aches that Friday is his last day of school for the summer. I’m thankful for the last few weeks for Owen. I’m thankful that I see so much growth in him and I know that there are big changes on the horizon. I tell Owen every day he is amazing and he will accomplish great things. Autism is as much about how I handle it as it is about Owen having it. Positive words and positive actions equal a positive life. Through life’s challenges know that this is a moment in time. Look for the smiles and sunshine even during the rain. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.