Some days are tougher than rough and others rougher than tough. But you get through them. I never understood the emotional rollercoaster I would go through daily. I often wonder why I can’t be stronger than I am and accomplish it all in one day. And then I have this little toothy grin stare up at me and say, “oh de” waiting for me to respond. He will start again, and again, and again, and again if I don’t finish the song. “Oh de bare”, not wanting to sing any more of it and waiting for me to finish singing one of his favorite songs, Bare Necessitates. I wonder if I’m helping the process or making it harder on both of us if I don’t answer him. Queen of overthinking reporting for duty once again. He’s feeling much better than he did yesterday, but he’s still got the head thing going on. He can’t comprehend why he is sick and he doesn’t understand how to deal with things like throwing up or teeth falling out. To him, it’s all part of his sensory seeking exploration and doesn’t understand how to handle it. Tonight he’s supposed to go to his church program, but can’t go because he’s still not feeling great. He doesn’t understand why he can’t “eat your dinner and den go to church”. He’s cried multiple times wanting to go, school was hard enough for him to stay home from, and I have to prepare him for two days off next week for a holiday and planning day. Life is routine through and through for us, until it’s not. We grow, we learn, and we keep pushing forward, with a lot of prayers in between. Know that you are a lot stronger than you think you are. Today is your day to shine. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.