One of us slept last night and one of us didn’t. I slept in Owen’s bed hoping he would sleep better. He did but I never do. Mister octopus doesn’t even cover it. He is all over the bed and I’ve yet to figure out how no matter what bed he sleeps in he moves so that he is sleeping sideways. I had some bananas delivered with the groceries today. They were sitting on the counter. I didn’t think about it until it was quickly brought to my attention. Bananas are one of those meltdown foods. It was a bunch of bananas so that makes it better for Owen but he still wanted them gone. We worked on this for years to even get this far. He loves the taste of bananas but if he sees them it’s another story. However, this rule does not apply in all places. He wanted to read his books with me. They were sitting on his table in the living room. Once he was finished with them instead of leaving them on the table he “put dem up”. I was kinda shocked by this. He likes things in their place but he doesn’t always but things in their place once they are in a different place. I saw growth. He came to me talking about his “birthday candle”. I immediately knew what he meant but I still wept a river of tears for his words. As soon as he sat down to show me his foot he changed the words “birthday candle” to “toenail”. He had made that connection awhile ago that they were called toenails but he’s been calling them birthday candles for as long as I can remember. But it was me that had to make the connection he was calling his toes “birthday candle”. I cried wondering how many other connections I have missed for my baby. All I can do is push forward. I try to listen to his words and when the exact words are not used for what he wants to express I try to help him make the connections but here I sat still weeping because I know I don’t always get it right and his struggle becomes harder trying to get me to understand something. “Getindecar”, he repeated hundreds of times before he fell asleep, his words all running together. He had started asking to go somewhere after dinner but he didn’t tell me where. I asked him where he wanted to go in the car and he said, “we need to go to church we all need to go to church”. And with those wise words, I hugged my baby a little tighter. Never give up on your dreams. Be bold, be beautiful, be you, and watch your world change. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.