I don’t think I simply woke up on the wrong side of the bed instead I think I may have woken up under the bed. Cranky does not even begin to cover it. I have been cranky since I went to sleep last night. The sounds filled the air and took my dreams away. I couldn’t fall asleep and every time I would I then heard a noise that would wake me up again. Owen slept a little better than me but still was up early. At least he woke up in a better mood than me. The seconds aren’t any better than the firsts. As Christmas is fast approaching I keep thinking about my brother. His laugh was the best. Maybe that’s why I’m so thankful for Owen’s incredible laugh. I have to focus on the positive side though. It’s what will get me through all of these moments. Owen was ready to go to school and mostly followed directions. He didn’t want to do any of his exercises before school and I think my crankiness was not helping. He tends to find ways to avoid his exercises if he can’t comprehend or process the task at hand or if he simply wants to do something else. I was excited because his teacher sent me a message telling me how well he did singing with her and his class. He has an amazing voice and he does great at harmonizing. When he learns how to control his voice and the power he has it will be a great chapter in his story. When he came home from school he talked about going places but immediately turned that into us not going anywhere and no one could come over. I didn’t think about it being Friday. I don’t know why I forget sometimes that Fridays are mostly for being home. Occasionally I can convince him to go someplace but I have to prepare him for it. I told him we might have someone come look at a few things that needed to be repaired at our house and he said, “nopedy nope.” He couldn’t find his new book so he wanted me to help him. He drops randomly to the floor and will say, “where is it I don’t see it where is it” looking for anything that he can’t find. He still looks for his tooth on the floor that he lost weeks and weeks ago. As far as I know, they were never even on the floor. One he lost at home and it went right to the tooth fairy and the other at school and it wasn’t long before the tooth fairy took it too. He was then calm once I found his green monster book. His grandma got him new Spider-Man boots. I showed them to him and he said, “Spider-Man” and immediately wanted to put them on. I said do you like them? He said, “no,” but had them on for the afternoon. I asked him what he sang with his teacher today. He started singing his ABCs in French and then he said, “no no Christmas it was Christmas.” I thought it was great he followed through and answered me. I learned why he always says “take his ears off” talking about his BeatBo robot toy. He has been watching a guy that takes apart the toy to fix them. When he was at therapy he said, “we need a screwdriver” while playing with the one that belongs to his therapist. We both thought it was because of the batteries she needed in hers but he knew why, he wanted to fix it. I was making his dinner tonight and I heard him say “and now we take his ears off” and saw he was watching a guy repair one. The amount of information he has stored in his mind is amazing. I can’t even imagine all the things he knows. My gift, my beautiful, beautiful gift. I’m so very thankful for him. Be confident in your soul and shine bright in the world. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.