Today feels a little sad. It’s my first birthday without my brother. All of these firsts hurt. I’m sure all of the seconds won’t feel much better but today hurts. We really didn’t spend a lot of our holidays or birthdays together but I keep waiting for him to call. Owen woke up sometime in the middle of the night. I pretty much lost track of the time. He didn’t go back to sleep. He came to tell me he was getting his tablet and I was to sit and he was going to the blue bed. He kinda did and I stayed in bed. I told him last night that today was my birthday. I said that when it’s someone’s birthday you say happy birthday to them. I explained when we got up he can tell me “good morning happy birthday”. So when we woke up I asked him if he remembered what today was. He said, “Wednesday”. I said, “do you remember what else today is?” He said, “it’s your birthday good morning mommy I appreciate you happy birthday tablet please”. He combined everything he could in there and I’m beyond thrilled that he is putting the conversation skills together. I want him to understand emotions, feelings, and respect for others. In the long run, he will get to decide when he wants to say happy birthday or good morning to someone but if he never knows he is supposed to do it then he will never understand the process so I’m thrilled with his progress. We both wore our camo pants. We successfully got to the bus stop in our non-blue pants once again. He wasn’t quite as upset about it today and I was able to distract him even though he talked about it numerous times. I asked him to sing Humpty Dumpty in German this morning when we got to the bus stop. The excitement washed over his face. He was so happy. He stood there singing it for me and the bus turned the corner as he asked me to ask Siri some phrases in German. I was thankful it was a smoother day for him. When I picked him up from school today he was happy and his teacher said they hadn’t talked about blue pants nearly as much today as they have been so we are continuing the trend and he wants to wear “tan pants and mommy wear floral pants tomorrow tomorrow”. He ate from the minute he came home until the minute he went to bed it seems. He mostly listened, mostly behaved, and mostly did things that I asked him to do. This all makes this mommy happy. I’m thankful for his smile and his attitude. Growing Owen that’s what we do. Today is the first day of the rest of your life. Find your inspiration, go after your happiness, and know that you matter. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.