He was watching bus videos and telling me the school was too busy for him to come today. I know it is all hard for him to process. He was very disappointed he didn’t get to ride the bus at all this week. I keep forgetting that we have a trolley downtown. I need to try to take him one day.
He told me numerous times that I needed to “axe grandma black computer tomorrow tomorrow.” I always tell him I have to ask his grandma to make sure what time he can come. We are trying to switch the days for him to go but it is not helping him with his schedule this week. He handled today much better than he did Wednesday. I think it helped that his school had prepared him so that we might have today off.
I tried to let him ask all the questions he wanted hoping that would keep him calmer but he was still on edge about when he was going back to school and I think that is part of the reason he didn’t want to go outside. Generally, I try to redirect but he was already elevated so calm is what I wanted to focus on.
He did not want to go out all day. He had one concern and that was to see his grandma and the “black computer” tomorrow. He kept making sure I asked her if he could go.
Before he went to bed I told him he has to make sure he sleeps all night and he always says “upper night” because I would tell him we can’t do something if he was up all night. I hope he sleeps and the roads are clear for tomorrow.
When I was talking to one of our support team today she reminded me about how much Owen has changed and that sometimes it takes the littlest of things to make the biggest impact. It wasn’t easy to get a new car a few years ago but doing it changed our lives.
The sound from the windshield wipers always made him have meltdowns. That one thing changed my life. And his. He still has meltdowns but he doesn’t have them over the windshield wipers. I can’t even imagine how hard that noise must have been on him. It still brings tears to my eyes because now he doesn’t cry over the sound of the windshield wipers. I wish I could find solutions for all of the noises in our world but each one we will keep clicking off together.
Our story isn’t always easy to explain but the love sure is. His smile tells me what I need to know. I am thankful for his growth and I can’t wait to see what all of our tomorrows bring. Believe in the miracle yet to come. Smiles to all and donut daze!