It felt like one of those good days for a great day with a little side of anxiety from both of us. The bigger Owen gets the more I feel the entire house shake when he jumps. And he jumps a lot. We have a basement so when he jumps he really makes the floor move. I keep thinking that I’m going to need to reinforce the floors. I wasn’t sure how this morning was going to go. I tried to make his costume as simple as possible. A farmer in overalls and a “farmer shirt” was the request and we did it. I showed him the overalls yesterday after showing them to him numerous other times to hope he would be comfortable with them and he said, “wear sweatpants” grabbing them. I said these are overalls and he ran off to play. When I put them on him he didn’t even say anything about the color. He always talks about “blue pants” but today he was ready for his “farmer shirt” to be put on him. I put a red T-shirt under his overalls and then his plaid flannel shirt. He listened to everything I said, we finished getting ready, and off to the bus stop we went. He stood there asking Alexa everything he could think of and then his bus arrived and off he went to his beloved school and teacher. When he came home he was very anxious about what he was going to do tomorrow but I was happy because he was still wearing his farmer outfit. He has not wanted to go bowling and any mention of it has sent him into a tailspin. I’m sure it has to do with his routine so I’m going to wait a few more weeks and see what happens. He would not stop asking me when he was going to “see grandma tomorrow”. It was to the point that it was surely going to be a meltdown. His foot was beating on the ground and I could tell by the squeal in his voice. I have been working with him on breathing techniques for years but it’s mostly me that breathes and tries to move forward, until today. I got him to breathe in and out with me to calm down. He stood with me holding my hands and breathing. That was huge huge huge. If I can get him to keep focusing like that it will be amazing and hopefully he will learn it like some of his other centering mechanisms we have worked on. I asked him what he celebrated at school today and after a few minutes he said, “Halloween”. I said, did you enjoy the party. He said, “no”. He had YouTube on the tv tonight reading all of the captions and he only had trouble with a few of the words. He felt connected even though he was anxious. He went to the bathroom twice all by himself. He washed his hands once and the second time I reminded him to wash them. He went right back in to do it and didn’t cry or yell “no more wash ya hands”. I’m thankful for today and his laughter got me through our day. Every step forward is a victory in my book. Follow your heart, dream big, and know that you can move mountains if you want to. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.