All In Tuesday

Owen was beyond happy with what he was going to do today. In fact, he was so happy we have been talking about it since five o’clock in the morning. And technically since Sunday. Today is parent-teacher conferences so it’s one more day off for Owen. He is ready to go back to school but today he got to go spend time with beloved friends and he couldn’t wait. Yesterday was probably one of the roughest days I have had in a long time. I’m trying to push through Owen’s demands of sitting and doing exactly as he wants to be able to find a medium ground that works for us both. My child screams a lot. It’s emotional for me. You find yourself trying to not ever rock the boat so there are no emotional outbursts or meltdowns. But they still come. Yesterday I did laundry when Owen was awake. This caused a lot of stress for me and him but I kept pushing forward on it. He has to know that there are other things mommy needs to do besides sit when he commands me to sit. The rollercoaster of emotions is strong thinking about what is the right and wrong way to handle this. I had groceries delivered yesterday. This has helped in so many ways but yesterday when I was done getting the groceries I didn’t turn the deadbolt to the exact location he needed it to be and he couldn’t get it into the exact location either. My sweet baby O was in full meltdown mode over the lock not being completely vertical. Over an hour later he was calm. This morning I went out to the car to make sure the doors were not frozen shut from the snow. Owen always watched me from the window if I have to go outside. Even if I’m only stepping on the porch I always take my keys because Owen will immediately shut the door and lock it. I try to explain to him that he can’t lock mommy out but he doesn’t understand. When I unlock the door from the other side he jumps up and down because “momma knock knock on de door” and “mommy home”. I’m thankful for his progress and his growth. I never imagined all of the emotions we would both go through. His smile is what keeps me moving forward. Share your smile with the world. You truly never know who might need to see it. Smiles to all and donut daze!