Even on a good day, the tears can fall for a thousand other reasons. And today’s reason is the month that Owen is so excited about is one of the months that is hard for me. Technically I suppose all of them have been hard since my brother passed away but some I guess aren’t as much of a reminder of the coulda, woulda, shoulda beens. His birthday is a few weeks away and everything feels heavy but I’ll focus on the good stuff. I know he would tell me to keep putting one foot in front of the other. The great news was Owen slept all night until almost seven. Send up the flares. I’m so happy. He was happy for most of the day. He wanted to go bowling but I forgot it was league day so they were very busy. Instead, he decided to ride his bike and go to the park. He is however counting the time until tomorrow so that he can go swimming again. He is also very excited that it is now August. He realized when he woke up it was August but he thought he might get to go to school. He knew immediately it was the first but he still asked me about school. I asked him what day he goes to school and he said, “the eighteenth no school today.” My little fish reminded me over and over throughout the day that we were going swimming tomorrow. He wanted to know why we weren’t going today and I told him because they weren’t open. Technically I was correct but many other pools in the area are open. I don’t want him to think we can go to the pool every day though. It’s like everything I don’t want it to become such a routine that we can’t do something else but I love going as well. It’s that think, rethink, overthink thing. When we got in the car to go to the park I told him to “pull the silver part” trying to get him to put his seatbelt on. The word “pull” and “pool” sound alike and he was all over that. He immediately started talking about the pool again but I reminded him they were closed and we would go tomorrow. After we left the park I drove him by the area I thought he was looking at on his maps app the other day. When we got home he went to the app and started looking at all the roads we covered. He started talking about the places we passed in the same manner so I think it was the right area. He played with his robot BeatBo off and on all day. He always watches this video that has the colors distorted and he comes to me to point out BeatBo’s mouth. He wants me to know it’s the wrong color. It amazes me the details he knows about everything. The night moved along not quickly enough for Owen because that pool time can’t come quickly enough tomorrow. He only had to be told once it was bedtime and I reminded him that he had to sleep for us to go tomorrow, hoping that reminder will help him stay in bed if he does wake up. I’m thankful that he is clocking the days off though with activities he wants to do. Focus on the good stuff and remember tomorrow is a brand new day. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.