Owen woke for the second time after six in the morning. What, I thought. I can’t remember the last time he slept so late and all night. He slept until five and then came to the couch, sleeping another hour. I can’t tell you how many times I woke thinking I missed him being awake. He woke in a good mood but on edge. He wanted what he wanted when he wanted it. And I sat. I pretty much want to forget about a big portion of our day. If ever the “Gone Fishing” sign should be hung it was today. Owen might have had the biggest meltdown I’ve ever seen from him or at least the biggest one in the car. Meltdowns in the car are almost impossible to stop. I have to be in his face, talking him through them, and in the car, everything I said was making it worse. Certain areas of town bring his emotions quicker to the forefront. But we can’t avoid these roads. And once he got this emotional he untied his shoe and that sent him even further into the meltdown. He doesn’t like slip-on shoes, Velcro causes him to play with the edge of the strip constantly, trying to get it in the right spot, and double tying his shoes work but in the car, he gets upset because he can’t untie them so he takes them off and this causes him to ask over and over for me to put his shoe back on. The rules are never-ending. And if I forgot one I quickly know I’ve forgotten one. I can only imagine his feelings about all of this. It has to be overwhelming for him when we go out into the unknown. I try to explain what is happening and where we are going but any one change can change every single thing about our day. I tried to make the rest of our afternoon go smoothly. We played together, sang songs, and asked Siri every word we could think of in every language she translates into. He is succeeding through his challenges and I reminded him that he is amazing. I try to push the meltdowns out of my mind and focus on the smiles, giggles, and laughter we shared. Tomorrow is a brand new day. Let today go and focus on the good stuff yet to come. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.