A lightbulb, I’m still crying over a lightbulb. I sat down on the couch, looked into the kitchen and the light was off. I never flip the switch until it’s time to flip the switch but I was praying I actually accidentally flipped the switch. The panic was coming quickly. I was hoping the light switch was off. I was praying the light switch was off. But it wasn’t. I looked around and all the other things were on. I thought it was possible that the breaker might have popped but I quickly knew it was the lightbulb. Owen quickly knew too. The meltdown started instantly. He was running between me and the light switch, yelling “turn it on”. My kitchen light doesn’t have exposed lightbulbs for a quick change. I had to get the step stool, the lightbulbs, and keep him calm all at the same time. Lights are huge to Owen. Meltdown worthy huge. Hours later and I’m still emotional about it. I tried to explain to Owen that he needed to have patience with mommy and that I had to change the lightbulb but all he knew is he wanted the light back on and he wanted it on that second. I’m exhausted from that moment, I’ll be stronger for the next moment. He also doesn’t like me to be on ladders so I had to convince him to sit on the couch, by himself, while having a meltdown. I do not know how he did it and I’m beyond thankful that he did, he sat. He kept getting up but he also kept listening to me tell him to sit down. I had to remain calm. I could not drop the light cover, nor the lightbulbs. He kept running to the switch but sitting back down. I kept trying to hurry. I got it changed out and put back together. And I began to cry, we both were crying. It took him a little while to calm down. When he was calm he came over to me and kissed me. Today we grew. No words can describe an emotional journey that no words can describe why we are on the journey. Owen doesn’t understand why something doesn’t work when he needs it to, who does really. Lightbulbs will now be on the list of things that need to be changed before they could possibly ever need to be changed. I would give anything for peace for my sweet baby O. For today I reminded him that we are a team and we need to show each other patience. And he showed me the greatest love I have ever known. Share your smile, spread your joy, and remind someone they are loved. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.