Owen didn’t sleep all night but he is definitely feeling better. I felt him crawl over me to get in my bed but what really snapped me to it was him laughing at his tablet loudly next to me. I told him to give me his tablet. He refused. I said the magic word and he started repeating it, “school school.” He does not want to miss school. It was like he was almost instantly asleep again as soon as I took his tablet away from him. And when he woke he was in a great mood. He was concerned with what we were wearing more so today than he has been in a while and I wondered if this had to do with him being able to concentrate on it more now that he was feeling better. We stood out waiting for the bus and he talked to me the whole time. He told me that the “fairy” was coming to see him on the farm. He doesn’t call it the tooth fairy but he has been concerned with loosing his tooth and making sure he got coins. This is the first time he’s made this connection and it’s exciting to watch him grow. He wanted me to know that Santa is bringing him a robot and he is going to see the “fish Santa and the reindeers.” He calls the Santa at Cabela’s the fish Santa because of their huge fish tank and right now he is “still at the pole.” He is fully invested in Thanksgiving as well and wants a turkey hat. He told me he was going to breakfast and the park with his grandma but not today he said. When he came home from school he was happy but he was also very focused again on what I was wearing. I went to change and I put my clothes on the bed. He got upset. I didn’t even think about it since I was just changing. Anything and everything I put on my bed are up for debate and a meltdown quickly happens. He was upset because I had changed my sheets and my pillowcase was no longer white. I change his all the time and it hasn’t been a problem so hopefully, this does not continue to be a problem. I let him wear his yellow glasses to school and I told his teacher so she would know it was his request. We are working together to try to help him focus on his visual responses to different scenarios that are put in front of him. He was much calmer after a while but I wasn’t doing anything because it spiraled every time I tried. Some days we don’t rock boats. He’s been eating great again the last few days and I’m glad to see his appetite returning. The bus driver told me they were going to get him a bigger safety belt for the bus. He said they noticed his belt was getting tight on him and wanted to make sure he was comfortable and it fit him properly. I love that they all take such good care of my sweet baby O. He came to me with a towel and said, “blow my nose.” He must have sneezed or just knew he needed help. I was thrilled. He’s never asked me to help him with his nose before and generally hates when I have to wipe it for him. He was watching a video and he said, “it’s in Espanol.” The rollercoaster ride today was rollercoastery. Vent sitting, non-bathroom going, meltdownable moments were centerstage but the shining behavior was when Owen told me I needed a hug and wrapped his arms around me. Our days are not always easy to explain but the love sure is. I’m thankful for his hug and his love. Never give up on the hope for tomorrow. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.