Owen slept all night again. He sounded better but still has the yucks. He is all about the tent thing. I thought it was from a Mickey Mouse Clubhouse episode but it turns out it is Blippi and he has a camping video. He showed me the video and then went to his treasure chest and said, “order it take off your shoes to go inside.” He sang all morning. It was mostly a Spider-Man song that sounded like he was mixing several versions together or making up one. He was in a good mood and talkative but everything still felt a little strained. He was sure ready to go to church though. I told him on the way to church we were going to a Halloween party in a few weeks at the church. He asked me if two of the guys would walk with him. I was happy he is getting the concept. He’s never been trick or treating from door to door because it was always too overwhelming for him and costumes were too much for him to see or handle. In the car, he told me every one that he was going to see at church. I told him one of his friends was in another state and he said, “he’s on vacation.” All the connections are coming. When we got to church you could see his face change. It becomes focused on the objective of who “needs to leave” because they don’t have blue pants on or what he wants them to wear. He saw one of our friends that he told her she needed to wear a dress next time. A calmness washed over his face as he saw her in a dress. He needed that visual to be calm. Think about your favorite thing, your absolute favorite thing. And then you were told you could never have it or see it again. Blue pants may not be Owen’s favorite thing but it brings calm into his chaos. I watch his face as he walks into a room. It is all a huge change for him to see so many colors, heights, actions, sounds, smells, textures, and so on. Blue pants are what he can drill into so that he can find peace. After we left church we went to “ride a tractor with Goofy.” They sold his tractor. He wasn’t pleased but he sat on another one. Thankfully they still had plenty of other red ones. Goofy rides on a red tractor so he wants it to be red. He got on the tractor and said, “room up.” I’m not sure why he always says the term when he gets on something but he has said it since he was little. We then moved over to Cabela’s to sit in the tent. He wanted to take off his shoes, get a bed, and a sleeping bag. He then requested a campfire, marshmallows, chicken nuggets, and to go to the swimming pool with his friend. As we were leaving to get his chicken nuggets and cheeseburger he said he was going to lose his tooth so it could go under his pillow and Santa would give him coins. He is always thinking and I have to stay ten steps ahead of him. I went to the bathroom and I hear him running through the house yelling “toon blast.” I come out and he had my phone trying to download it. He was laughing hysterically. I told him that he shouldn’t have my phone and we were not downloading any games on it. He was watching a Halloween video trying to tell me the skeleton was in blue pants. I asked him if he thought the skeleton had on blue pants and he said, “no white shoes.” That about sums up how blue pants go. I’m focusing on the victories from today and not the moments I wanted to cry. I’m praying he is feeling better tomorrow. I know that throws off some of those behaviors like the screaming he did because I was hanging up clothes so he could wear his Spider-Man pajamas to bed. I let him continue to scream at me while I had him help me put his clothes away. I told him if I didn’t do the laundry then he couldn’t wear his Spider-Man pajamas. I think this both helped and hurt the process. His amazing singing and laughter got us through all those hurdles. Remember your dreams are incredible and you can make them come true. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.