He was very ready to go to his grandma’s house. On a good front, he is starting to understand how to read the clock better though. At five o’clock he told me five more hours and at six he then told me “In four hours Mommy go bye bye grandma black computer.”
I was fixing his breakfast and I asked him if he wanted his sausage dogs “whole or broken.” He said, “Whole.” It felt like one of those life moments when he said it. We are all striving to be whole but accepting who we are is important and continuing to grow into the person we wanted to be. Each day I’m trying to grow and learn from yesteryear.
He told me he wanted to go swimming on Tuesday. The boy knows his schedule and when he is available to go. He told me he was wearing his “blue swimsuit” again. I’m happy he is requesting to do more things.
I always say autism is as much about how I handle it as it is about Owen having it. Sometimes the journey is about how he handles my emotions. Learning to embrace these moments and growing from each other is what this journey is all about.
We got ready and I took him to see his grandma. He was happy when he got there because she had the fire going so they could make s’mores. He doesn’t eat them but he loves to watch them being made. Occasionally he will take the tiniest bites of parts of it. When he was there I went to walk at the track for my journey to walk in the 5K.
I went to pick him up and my mom said he had a great day. He was good all the way home and when we turned on our street he went through all the motions and emotions but I could tell he was processing them.
When we came home before we got out of the car he went through some of his sayings but this time they were the opposite instead of leaving they were for coming home. He said, the engine off room up no room down.” He always says, “Room up” when we are leaving and I’m taking too long. I’m not sure where the saying came from but now “room down” must mean we are home.
Owen is inspiring me and I know I want more for him. I sit at night wanting so much more and not doing it so I know the steps I need to take and I just have to do it. Each day we get the chance to grow and my sweet baby O is a’growin. Learning to let yesteryear go is half the battle. Smiles to all and donut daze!