Happy dance started at six in the morning because our day started at six in the morning. I woke up in the middle of the night to go to the bathroom but thankfully Owen did not wake up. One of us was in a better mood than the other when we woke for the day. Everything seems to be hard for him lately yet it really seems like he is bebopping along at the same time. I love when he is interactive with me. He wanted me to play his firefighter game with him on his tablet. There are different animals in the game and he started telling me about them. His favorite part is at the end when they get to kiss the hero and he says muah. I said can I give you a kiss and he leaned his forehead towards me and said, “muah kiss.” He was ready for church. So was I. Driving to church today I begged God for calm. I said please give me the message of hope I need to hear today. I took Owen to his classroom and I went to sit in the sanctuary. I always sit in the back. I sat for a moment and a lady asked me if I would like to sit with her. I had been crying but I don’t think she saw me at first. The last few weeks have been hard. I’m so tired of trying to figure out how to deal with all the broken things. It’s a never-ending list. Some bother Owen, some bother me because they bother Owen, and some just need to be fixed. And then add in everything else, plus I miss my brother so I pray. The lady was beyond kind. We had a few minutes to talk before the service and then when the message started I knew it was exactly what I needed to hear. When we left church Owen wanted chicken nuggets and a cheeseburger. As soon as we got home he wanted to go for a walk in the “little red wagon.” It was raining but I told him when it stopped we would go. I always walk him by the police and fire stations because I want him to know that if he ever needs help these are places he can go. Today we happened to walk by at the right time. They were pulling back into the station when we walked by. We watched them back up and then one of the firefighters came to talk to us. He then let Owen get into the truck and showed him all of the hoses and accessories. The fireman was very kind and followed every single bouncing ball he threw at him. Owen said the truck looked like a robot and the fireman went with it. He wanted to be buckled in and said, “seatbelt gotta put your seatbelt on” and he helped him put the seatbelt on. I could not have asked for a better person to show us around. It truly was a blessing. I always tell him that if he ever needs help to go to either place so the fireman showed him how to get in and where the doorbell was in case the doors were closed. It made me happy to know he meet one of them so they would know him. The fireman brought him two colored hats to choose from and he picked “orange.” I wish he had wore his orange glasses. We finished our walk and he still wore his hat. When we came home he ran to look at himself in the refrigerator. He likes to see his reflection in it. The rest of the night was mixed with numerous emotions but thankfully no meltdowns even though he wasn’t taking no for an answer even when there could be no other answer. He doesn’t always understand even if he wants something it doesn’t make it happen. And he can’t have everything he wants. Like an app, he already has and wants it again. But we made it through the rest of the night with more laughs than screams, except the fake ones he now has perfected that are from a video he watches. I’m thankful for an incredible day. I’m thankful for our blessings. As they say, I’m stressed but I’m blessed. Find your strength and keep pushing forward. Tomorrow even in the rain the sun will still shine. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.