Well, we got ourselves in one of those quarantined things again. I can’t even say how much my heart is breaking because it’s all so much. I’d like to say I get it but I don’t. And if I don’t even get it how am I supposed to make Owen understand it. He kept repeating all night “be with mommy”. I told him over the next week he has to stay home with me. That’s the only thing I can say to him to make him understand. All I can do is pray and try to keep him busy and on some type of schedule. His teacher told me he has been doing well and when we came home today his words felt very vibrant. He wanted me to help him with Siri but his vocabulary and pronunciation are becoming stronger so I try to make him ask her for everything. Plus, he wants me to ask for a particular song or phrase and then he doesn’t even listen to more than a few seconds and he asks for something else or the exact same thing again. I told him that if he wanted me to help him that he had to at least listen to the song longer. He ran off asking her for some phrase in “Thailand not Thailand it’s Russian”. He had dueling Alexa and Siri again tonight. I truly am thankful for all his words. I waited years to hear his words and even longer for the amazing connections he is now making. I think we are on to that breakthrough phase. It seemed like he ate all night long. At one point he ran to the bathroom and said, “gotta go potty”. I’ve been trying to not follow him right in the bathroom so that it will give him time to go through all the motions. He went potty and then I heard him say, “wash your hands”. I could tell he moved the soap dispenser and the water was on. He turned it on full blast like he always wants to do but he quickly finished, maybe too quickly, and then I heard him say, “then you dry your hands”. He came running to me and I told him how proud I was of him. It is hard to let him go through his own accomplishments when I want to help him through it all. My expectations of how something should be done can defeat the success of him doing it on his own. I’m learning to focus on the goal of his independence. We have to remember to train for the possibilities not only the performance. He is doing great things in this world and will keep growing, and so will I. Tomorrow is a brand new day. Let yesterday go and focus on the future. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.