I breathe. Owen was awake before I could even imagine I was fully asleep. I tried to get him back to sleep but he was focused on three things, being awake, going to the doctor, and his tablet. The last few days feel like one big emotional journey. Not being on his routine is hard and we are only on day one of no school. He keeps asking for his teacher over and over again and when he is going to see her next. How do I begin to explain it’s several weeks away and then. It’s only for a month and then almost two months until he will see her again after that. I breathe some more. By six in the morning, I had drank a whole pot of coffee. Oh, how I pray he sleeps tonight. He had a good morning. He ate as much as I drank I think. By ten in the morning, he had about twenty chicken fingers, waffles, cereal, veggie straws, and numerous other things. It wasn’t long after that we went to his follow-up appointment with his doctor. Thankfully this time he was calmer. His doctor wore blue pants and that helped as well. When a doctor can embrace your child and make sure their emotions are respected you know you have someone that cares. We moved forward on more therapy appointments and referrals. I breathe. Some days it’s hard for me to wrap my brain around all of these steps. I know how hard it can be for him. Once he gets into a routine he loves going places but I know it is a process. When we got home he ate lots more and thankfully was very calm. He asked for his teacher throughout the afternoon and kept saying “Wednesday be with mommy”. We played games together and he wanted to sing with me. He didn’t want to eat much dinner but I figured he was tired and he ate enough with all his snacks that he was probably full. I made the mistake of humming and instead of going to sleep, he was completely awakened. He finally fell asleep in my arms and I felt a sigh of relief when he was comfortable again. He asked for his tablet multiple times as he was falling asleep so I pray that isn’t something that gets on his mind and he’s up in a couple of hours. I’m thankful for his laughter in all the chaos of the moments around us. He was so happy to see the doctor today and he was in the Curious George room and that made him really happy too. He fell asleep in his Spider-Man pajamas since some of the others characters did not make the cut I ordered a backup Spider-Man. Today was a busy day, a good day, an emotional day, a productive day, and there was some sadness sprinkled in but my sweet baby O told me he loved me and he wanted to sit with me and held my hand. Those are the moments that make my hard breaths calmer and my smile brighter. Let your soul shine through and watch your dreams come true. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.