I heard Owen crying out to me around three in the morning. Usually, he comes to me. I got up as quick as I could and went to him. Something woke him and he didn’t want to go back to sleep at first but I got in his bed and he thankfully fell back asleep in my arms. I pretty much fell asleep when the alarm went off telling me I couldn’t fall back asleep. We got up, he listened to me, and we got in my bed until we had to get ready for school. I was thankful my coffeemaker had the coffee brewing by the time I got to it and I could sit drinking it while we played games together. He was in a great mood and once I drank a pot of coffee I was at least awake. We got ready to go to the bus stop and he was very calm, once again taking directions well. When we got there I showed him how we could make one of his app games come to life. The sidewalk has big squares and I had him say a number one through six like his game and then we moved forward on the squares. He didn’t quite see the connection but I talked to him about the characters and how they roll the dice. I think the more we try to play the game he will see how we can become the moving pieces like the game. I love spending these moments with him playing games and talking to him about things he likes. We got several phrases in that he wanted to translate before the bus arrived and then off he went to school. I told him I would pick him up so we could go to his wellness checkup. He loves going to see his doctor so I was glad it was something we were going to do today. It always makes him happy. Owen wears a seatbelt on the school bus and they have asked me if I think he still needs it because he sits so calmly now. I’m torn but I think he does. He still has huge meltdowns occasionally in the car about traffic, stoplights, or the direction we are going so I’m afraid this will happen on the bus at some point. With him being strapped in at least he can’t get up if he does get upset. It’s such an emotional journey for me. In my car I haven’t taught him how to push the button to unbuckle himself because I do not want him to be able to take it off randomly but this again is so hard. I need him safe so I try not to overthink any of it and remind myself that I can only do my best and the timing will come when he is ready to move on to different options. I picked him up from school and his teacher said he had a great day. I am so thankful he loves school and that he has an outstanding teacher. I love the connection they have and know that he has made so many strides because of her. We came home to get a snack and then off to the doctor we went. I always tell him that appointments like this are necessary and that the doctors and staff are always there to help us. I want him to feel good about going and not dread these appointments. I thought it was great they put us in a room decorated with pirates. Although he wasn’t impressed because it wasn’t what he had in mind for his treasure hunt. He had a great checkup and he has grown since the last time we were there. He has always been small for his age but is now catching up. He was still concerned about the doctor wearing blue pants but she is amazing and remembered that she was going to see him today and had promised him she would wear blue pants for him. When the appointment was over he did great in the car. He asked me for nuggets but then changed his mind and wanted to go home and have a “cheese sandwich.” The night felt calm compared to last night. There were a couple of moments but he mostly let everything go as soon as anything started happening. He knows that tomorrow he will “be with mommy” but after he said it a few times he was calm. I told him we could go do something but he said, “no” numerous times. We will see is what I replied and he just looked at me. He has Monday off from school. I’m not going to think too hard on that though. I’m thankful for his growth in so many ways. His is truly growing in mind, body, and soul. I'm trying to remember to focus on the little things that matter and hearing Owen laugh with his whole body shaking is joy to my heart. If my sweet baby O is happy I’m happy. Always remember the little things lead to the biggest of victories. Make today matter. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.