My sweet baby O knows his schedule backward and forwards and every other direction and in between. And then along comes days like tomorrow. It’s Friday. School’s not supposed to be out. School is absolutely not supposed to be out on Fridays. For that matter Mondays, Tuesdays, Wednesdays, or Thursdays. It’s routine five days a week, every week, forever, and ever amen. Tomorrow and Monday are both days off for our county. All I keep thinking is thankfully it is only two days instead of the week they normally would take for spring break. I do not like breaks. Because he does not like breaks. My heart aches for my child. Owen screamed all night long and then cried himself to sleep. When we got home from his therapy today he immediately started talking about not seeing his teacher. And pretty much was glued to my hip, needing the reassurance of what his days ahead would be like. This little break in his routine manifests itself as one behavior after another. I can’t even think about it. It’s exhausting and he doesn’t get why he has breaks. The older he gets and the more he becomes aware of his schedule the harder it gets for him. And right now nothing is certain with our routine and could still change. I know that’s life but trying to explain it to Owen is beyond difficult. His internal clock knows what time and day it is. I try to block out the memories from last year when the pandemic started because the screams, crying and meltdowns where never ending. I spoke with his teacher today about planning how to get him transitioned to summer. There are not enough sips of coffee to keep the tears from flying out of my eyes. It’s still months away and it’s all I can think about. So I pray. Our support team and therapists I know will help to work through this with Owen but it’s still hard for me to see him hurting. I’m going to focus on him singing Humpty Dumpty to me in French and asking for veggie straws and milk in Korean. There’s no stopping my sweet baby O. He’s going to move mountains. Through the struggles, we grow and tomorrow is a brand new day. Set your sights on your dreams and watch them come true. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.