I could have done the happy dance when I woke up at three thinking I heard Owen but it must have been my bladder telling me a story. I was afraid I would wake him up when I went to the bathroom but thankfully he stayed asleep until about five. I’ll take it. The day was full of twists and turns but all and all a good day. Some days, most days, I overthink everything or think so much about the things I don’t need to think about that I just continue to think about all the things and then I ask Owen and he says, “no”. He was in a good mood most of the day but he wanted to listen to everything loud and not listen to me. He kept playing one of his apps very loud so I took his tablet. I told him to go play with something else so he took books and went to his bed to read. He finished a book and came to me to get his tablet. I told him no and he would go back to his bed with another book. I felt like this was progress. We were supposed to go to the splash park with friends but it rained. Instead, we were going to try to go to a movie but I wasn’t sure how he would handle it. We’ve only been to one and it was fine but hard on both of us. He decided for me though. It started to rain and he came to me and told me he wasn’t going anywhere since it was raining. This was new. He had never told me this before. So I told my friend we weren’t going to the movie but we could still try for dinner. It had stopped raining so I was hoping that he would go but I didn’t want to push him but yet I wanted to push him. Thankfully he wanted to go. We went back to the same place we had gone when he had the huge meltdown because of “blue pants”. I needed us to be able to go there and he did fine. I did fine. It went well and I was happy. Sometimes you need to go even if it pushes your entire core. When we got home he ate a second dinner and multiple snacks before he went to bed. He laid in bed and he said, “good night I love you.” I thought he was done so I said, “I love you too.” He continued, “baby shark I love you you funny.” That’s my boy and he was asleep. We made it through another day and each day gets us back closer to our routine of school. We danced in the living room together before bath time and it made my day. He laughed and he danced, holding my hands and stomping his feet. It was beautiful. Tomorrow is a brand new day. Quit chasing your own happiness and instead be happy in the now. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.