I went to sleep with Owen in the “blue bed” last night. I was exhausted and needed the sleep. This really didn’t help because he still woke up at about three and realized I was not in the “white bed”. He told me “get in the white bed”. I told him that he needed to go back to sleep and I would once he was asleep again, trying to convince him he had just fallen asleep. He was not convinced. It didn’t take long and we were up for the day. He was happy when we got up though. There were several demands and wanted no lights but he also wanted chicken. I told him that if he wanted chicken I had to be up. He ate it all. I even gave him some cereal. It was all gone. When we were waiting for the bus Siri and Alexa were not on my phone so he kept asking for “I want chocolate milk please in Arabic” but nothing was coming up. He quickly said, “next time next time”. He always says that when he can’t get exactly what he wants. As we were standing there I wanted to cry and then I realized sometimes you just have to breathe and know you can’t fix everything. That’s not always easy to remember. And thankfully he was calmly waiting for the bus. When he came home from school it was such a different feeling than yesterday. He was wanting to go over sentences with me. He stood talking to me about therapy and how he would tell me he was going versus telling someone else he is going. He started talking about it all on his own and stood there patiently repeating different words that I was emphasizing for him. Sounded very exciting. He felt very calm today. We talked about manners and when he yelled I explained to him that we do not yell at each other. He seemed to listen to me. I also told him he could not eat my hair or hit me. I said if he did it again I would take his tablet. For some reason, it worked tonight. I’ve said it before but this time maybe, just maybe it will be something he follows through on. He wanted me to look up the same video over and over. Even though I was saying exactly what it was it wasn’t coming up. I pulled it up a different way and he didn’t like it. He walked away and said, “I’m angry”. He was calm but he was angry. I’m thankful that he is learning to deal with and express his emotions. His day ended with as much food as it started. He was watching a Halloween special and the character was a pig in a ghost costume. “That’s a ghost woohoo”, he said. It’s so hot here I told Owen his Spider-Man pajamas weren’t washed so he would wear shorts to bed. He said so he “could get tan on”. He fell asleep quickly and I’m not sleeping in the blue bed so maybe he will sleep better. Thankful for the calm waters in the rough seas we have been having. He was happy all night. Today is the first step of the rest of your life. Believe in the miracle yet to come. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.