Owen slept until after six. That was glorious. Especially since I couldn’t fall asleep until after three myself. He was still not feeling great but I think he was better than yesterday. He was very talkative this morning and I could see the mischievous twinkle in his eyes very early on. He was all set in motion for numerous repetitive behaviors. He needed to go back over things that happened a year ago, two years ago, and beyond. “Pop a ball,” he said to me, thinking about his ball that he accidentally popped I think about a year ago. He moved on to talking about the woman on the corner which then changed to him talking about the dog on the steps, and the person that didn’t say hi to him. These references were scattered throughout our day. He wanted to go to grandma’s house but I didn’t rush him through the morning. When it was time to go I got his clothes ready and put them on my bed. I asked him to come to my room to change. I need him to understand my bed can have other things on it. He saw his clothes and immediately his foot started hitting the floor and saying, “throw the jeans in the trash” and picked them up. I said that is fine but then you will have nothing to wear to grandma’s so I will sit. It was hard for him to process or move forward. I explained that if he didn’t leave them then he couldn’t get dressed and go. I went on to tell him that had he not walked into my room he wouldn’t have known they were there and that if he quickly put them on they would no longer be on the bed and would be on him instead. He started putting them on. It felt like a big step. I then put my clothes on the bed so he could see I was going to do the same thing. I told him to go get his shoes but it was hard for him to leave. He walked out of my room to get his shoes but he got sidetracked by the drawer in the kitchen. He had to move it in and out and stood in several spots to look at the angle. The good news was he didn’t scream. So again it felt like progress. He finally ran to get his shoes. On the way to grandma’s house, I asked him if he knew what was happening on the 31st. He said, “Halloween.” I then asked him if he knew what else was happening. He said, “eye doctor looks in your eyes new glasses” and told me the doctor’s name. I’ve been trying to prepare him for the fact they will not be wearing blue and it will be different than his regular eye doctor. Plus, I wanted him to understand the tests will be different. He did great at grandma’s house except like at home the darn potty train has left the building. When he is sick it is always harder for him to concentrate on those life skills even when he is reminded several times. He was singing several new songs for him today and who knows if he made them up. His songs always amaze me. He asked me if we were going to a party tonight. I said not tonight but we can go to another party soon. He said he wanted to go to a “goat party.” I said do you mean ghost party and he said, “no goat party on the farm with a tractor.” He went on to say he wanted a tent with marshmallows and a campfire with hotdogs. He’s got his future planned and it looks bright. He was asleep quickly tonight and I’m hoping for another all-nighter. I’m thankful for his laughter and his songs. Find what makes you happy, share your joy, and it will awaken your spirit. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.