I’m liking these sleeping nights. Owen has been falling asleep anywhere from nine to eleven and waking between four and six in the morning. I’ll take it. For him to be sleeping through the night is wonderful. I’ve watched him make so many connections and express more emotions lately. I poured his milk in his glass this morning and he said, “chocolate milk”. He went on to tell me it was brown and “manilla milk is white”. “I drink chocolate milk”, he said, stating it like it was the preference he meant it to be. This felt great to me. All the steps and words to get through those moments are coming together. He goes through stages where my hair is more of an obsession to him. It has to be exactly just so. Mommy has to be picture perfect and if I try to move my hair he will immediately go into meltdown mode. Me even pulling it back in my hands will have him screaming or on the floor. I am constantly feeling like I’m being judged by my eight year old but I have to remind myself that is not what it’s about at all. He hasn’t seen my hair fully wet in years. I tried to slowly introduce it to him by showing him a section of my hair wet at a time but after a week of me increasing the amount of my hair being wet, I put it on hold. The meltdowns were huge and the hours it took for him to process it was just too much on me, and him. Mentally and physically I was exhausted from his outbursts about my hair. We will revisit it one day but I’m not ready for it. I got him some new bath toys and his pure joy made me realize I was going to have to get him more. He wants nothing to do with toys until he is in the bath. “Shark shark s is for shark it’s a fish”, he sang out as he used his new shark toy to chomp on the little fish it came with. He counted the fish as he threw them in the water. He sang songs and made up words too. I’m thankful for his growth but more importantly I’m thankful for the smile that he gives me. I tell him all the time that when he smiles it changes the world to a better place. Find your inspiration, be motivated, and make your dreams come true. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.