Have To Focus On Monday

It’s funny today is one of those days I’ve done anything but focus on things. I started writing this very early this morning, got a couple of words done, and then it seems like one thing after another. And now it’s bedtime, past bedtime. The potty train has left the building on some aspects even though Owen is still doing great with it. He truly does not understand how his body works. I have to block it out because it gets emotional thinking my eight-year-old is struggling with going to the potty. Rinse, repeat, save that for another day of emotions. Focusing on the good stuff, that’s what today needs to be about. Owen interacted with me in many ways. He felt really connected to the world and was very bright-eyed and alert. That doesn’t always happen. Some days it feels like he is very remote or detached from the present like he can only concentrate on one thing at a time, not letting go of it, and then it consuming his whole day. But today was also one of those days that felt like what was old was new again, for numerous things. When Owen was younger he would take my hand and move it to do different actions on his tablet or any activities we would be working on. It was like he didn’t quite know how to use his hands so he would use mine. He had not done this in a very long time and then a couple of days ago he started coming to me, taking my hand, and having me do the steps of the activity again. Today it was numerous apps and steps that he wanted me to perform. I try to encourage him to still do them using his hands, but that frustrates him. When he washes his hands he never tries to put his left hand in the water. He would rather it stay dry. He will also leave his shoe and sock on one foot and remove it from the other. He will walk around like that until I either help him remove it or encourage him to take it off. His doctor believes it is because of his sensory issues. We laughed, we learned, and we loved today. And that is what matters. Find the positive side of life and know that today is one moment in time. Find your strength and keep moving forward. Smiles to all and donut daze!