I’m trying to remember to smile. I’ve stayed one step ahead of being a puddle on the floor today, so that’s good. Owen is constant from the moment he wakes to the moment he falls asleep. He laughs hard, he plays hard, he screams hard, and he doesn’t stop. Not all screams are mad ones or sad ones. A lot of times they are excited screams of joy, but it is still loud most of the time. If I try to play any sound on my phone he screams and immediately tries to take my phone away. And if that doesn’t work he stands in front of me with his hands on his ears and his foot beating the floor. But I have to focus on his joy, his smile, his love. I don’t want to think about the regression and huge potty training issues we are having. If I use a phrase one time, it doesn’t matter if I’ve said it correctly or if it really applies to a situation Owen will use it. I have to constantly be on my toes to my words and actions. This is easier said than done when you are with your child constantly around the clock. I asked Owen if he wanted to take a bath. He said, “that’s not a question”. I usually tell him to go potty and he says “no”, so I’ve said, “that’s not a question go potty”. He will reply with “yes ma’am no ma’am” when I ask him if he needs to go to the potty or if he likes a certain food. I try to get him to understand he only has to use one of the replies. If I know he does like a certain food I will tell him “say yes ma’am”, but he still replies with both answers. I’m trying to find a balance of what to do throughout our days and keeping him growing. To see any steps backwards causes me to spin as well. I want to keep the progress moving forward, but I’m also only one person full of as many emotions as he has trying to hold it all together through these trying times. I’ve never been a neat and organized person. I’ve always been fine with things randomly anywhere, but the more time I spend in my house and with my child that sees everything as something I know that I have to simplify our lives. Here’s to a clutter-free lifestyle. As I look back over our day I will focus on the love. His smile makes me smile, his joy goes right to my heart, and as stressed as I am knowing he is smiling throughout our days makes me push harder for a better tomorrow. Find joy in your heart and share it with the world. Be the change you want to see. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.