I’m thankful Owen slept all night. We had several busy days and it seems we have many more ahead. Thankfully we slept all night. I woke at four but went back to sleep. The time change always confuses me. I never know if I should be exhausted or just tired. When Owen woke he came and got into bed with me and we slept a little more. He wanted his tablet right away but I reminded him to go to the bathroom first. He didn’t have school today and his eye appointment wasn’t until later in the day so we didn’t have to rush to do anything. Yesterday I put a sign on our bathroom door that said, “no tablet in bathroom.” This has been a problem for a while for numerous reasons. When he washes his hands if his tablet gets wet then he screams. The sign helped, it actually helped. I couldn’t believe it. He didn’t go into the bathroom with it. Didn’t keep him from camping in the bathroom but at least it kept a little more peace for him. When we went to North Carolina over the summer Owen saw my brother’s vacuum and has talked about it since then. When my mom went back she brought home the vacuum for him. He now has “uncle wichard’s vacuum” in our living room and he is so happy. Grief is a beast. I’m so glad that his vacuum makes Owen happy but it’s emotional. I’m thankful for the stories that people are still sharing with me of the giving man my brother was. I have to remember to walk in his footsteps and not his shadow. As I think about so many memories I remind myself of the victories Owen has been having. He put my shoes on and walked around the house. They are his favorite shoes of mine. He had them on the opposite feet but he was so proud of himself. It made my day to see my son being a kid. These are the moments that touch my soul. We got ready for his appointment with the eye specialist. He kept looking at my legs and wouldn’t stop. The blue pants thing is in full action. I pray that we can move forward from this. When we went to the appointment he did better this time because the doctor was wearing blue pants and he could focus more but he was also distracted by wanting to watch their tv in the lobby. They asked if we wanted to watch tv while we waited. He told them, Disney Junior. I didn’t think how much of a distraction it would be to him. He couldn’t stop thinking about it once we got back to the room but at least he was able to do the test and we are going to start the visual processing training next week. I’m looking forward to seeing how this helps him learn and hopefully it will help us redirect his need for everyone to be in blue pants. After we left the office he wanted to go to the park. I took him to one we hadn’t been to in a while. He had fun playing on the equipment and then he laid down on the wood chips and was making wood chip angels, talking about snowballs and wanting to see Megamort and the carrot zeppelin like from the Mickey Mouse Clubhouse. The night went fast. He wanted chocolate milk but they were out when I tried to get it the other day so all we had was “manilla milk” and no “sauce” for it. He wants me to make chocolate milk by adding chocolate syrup when we only have vanilla milk so he poured the first cup into the sink. Chocolate milk is about the only sweet thing he has so hopefully the store will have more tomorrow or at least I can get some “sauce” if they don’t. He fell asleep laughing about Salty the Seal in our tub and he was happy because he gets to go to school tomorrow. Full day but a joyful day. Rejoice even in the days that feel hard and let your voice sing the praises that can be heard on the mountaintops. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.