When life hands you lemons and really you need the whole lemon tree, what do you do. I pray. And Owen’s answer, “we need to go to church you need to go to church”. I explained to him I wasn’t sure if we could go to church today because our car is broken. He said, “church will pick you up”. I don’t think he knows how perceptive that statement actually was. I stood in the bathroom at church, crying, looking at my bruised and slightly painted arm. I walk into things a lot and painting seems to be my go-to peacemaker for my ever bumping heart these days. We painted this morning, in-between my bouts of sadness it brought a sparkle to my eye, knowing I’m working through life with my son. There are a thousand moments in time and this is just one second in an unwritten history. Breathe through the hard times. Sometimes asking for help is the hardest thing to do. One sets out to conquer the world but sometimes the world feels like it leaves you crumbling. Today I feel blessed. Today I am emotional. And today I sat behind the veil of the video camera, hiding my emotions from everyone but God. I could cry there. I focused the camera through tears, knowing that God was hearing my cries. I kept thinking about Owen’s words and knowing that the church would pick me up. We are not meant to walk through the shadows of darkness alone. We got home and I looked at Owen sipping away on his milk, knowing that because of him I’m a stronger more determined person. Life is full of challenges, but through perseverance and a belief that great things will come mountains can be moved and lives can be changed. I’m thankful for Owen’s inspiration every day. I learn more about myself and the world through the heart of my son. Find your inspiration and motivation and make today matter. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.