Owen woke numerous times in the middle of the night crying. I don’t know that he was even completely awake. It had been a while since he cried that much during the middle of the night. It was random bursts all night long. His words were all tangled together and he couldn’t tell me why he was upset. I tried to quiet him as quickly as possible, holding him in my arms, and whispering quietly in his ear to go back to sleep. My emotions sat as heavy as his did at that point. I wanted him to go back to sleep so it wouldn’t escalate. The words he was saying were gibberish and I knew if he completely woke up at that point it would continue with a series of meltdowns. Luckily each time I was able to get him back to sleep. He was happy when he woke for the day, but I could still see the emotions sitting heavy with him. He wanted me to help him throughout the day and he made numerous requests for things we didn’t have, but obviously, he wanted. He wants a computer tower like he uses at grandma’s house. He calls it a “box”. He has a laptop, but he wants it to be more like the one he is used to. I’m amazed at how much he makes connections to certain things. He will be getting a new computer soon. The other thing he asked for all day was a dog. Since he’s been playing more with our friend’s dog he talks about it all the time. I love it when he lights up about his world that excite him. The dog won’t come as quickly as the computer, but I hope to get one for him in the next year. I want to find a dog that he will have a connection with and will easily be trainable to follow commands from Owen. Since he can’t always explain himself the dog is going to need to be very perceptive and smart. I feel confident it will happen as it should and he will get the dog of his dreams. All day Owen was one tear away from crying and I kept trying to make him laugh. I didn’t want him to go into meltdown mode and I prayed I could keep him busy. We painted, sang, and he played his instruments for me, talking a lot about his keyboard. His smile still pushed through even though we were both emotional about it. Follow your dreams, explore your options, and you can make a difference in your world. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.