Happy dance for sleep to the left, happy dance for attitude to the right. Somewhere in between, we do the hokey pokey and we think about it. Owen woke about the same time I did and was happy to go to the bathroom quickly and then he turned off the light I was using to find the coffeepot. I guess technically I don’t need the light since I’m like a homing pigeon when it comes to my first cup of coffee. But there we were in the dark. I’m envisioning sugarplums dancing in my head and a house with rooms set completely apart from each other in a way that will help each of us to have exactly the right lights we need. We talked about Halloween, Thanksgiving, and Christmas while waiting for the bus and everything in between. He wanted me to know that it takes pumpkins to make a jack-o-lantern and you say “boo.” For Thanksgiving, he wants a turkey hat but when I showed him a picture of a turkey hat he said, “no” so I’m thinking I haven’t figured out his vision yet for the perfect turkey hat. He is fully invested in Christmas and he wants Santa the Pirate to bring him gifts. This scenario changes daily as to what Santa’s real role is. Sometimes he’s a pirate that helps with his treasure chest and other times he is at the “pole” still. I often give Owen the mwah kisses on the top of his head. When I kissed him on the cheek he said, “it’s hearts and birds” and pointed to his cheek. It made me smile thinking how visual of a reference that is and what he might have thought about it. It was cool out this morning so I showed him how you could see our breath as we exhaled. He was completely fascinated with it. When I went to pick him up from school he had two things on his mind, blue pants and tractors. He was asking if his therapists would wear blue pants and he wanted to ride a tractor with Goofy. His therapists did not wear blue pants but he did get to sit on several tractors. I called a place near us to see if it was fine if I brought him, letting them know he wanted to sit on the tractors. They said yes and to come anytime we liked. It was such a great experience for Owen even if he did have blue pants on his mind. And the staff was incredible. One of the associates came out immediately to tell us that he could sit on any of them and when Owen said something about needing a seatbelt he told me the one he was sitting on had one. This made Owen even happier. In a little bit, another associate came out to check on us and told us about the big tractor inside. We went in and he got inside it. He didn’t stay in it long. I think it was bigger than what he was thinking because the other one was more like what Goofy rides. Plus he was distracted by not everyone being in blue pants but they were completely understanding about everything. We went back outside and several other associates talked to us and let us know if we needed anything to just ask. He spent a few more minutes on another tractor but he wanted to ride it to the pool so he could see Santa the Pirate and his friend. I told him the pool was closed for the summer but he was ready to go. I think his allergies are still acting up and he was extremely tired tonight. It didn’t take much for him to fall asleep and hopefully tomorrow he will feel a lot better. My emotions are still all over the map but I’m thankful for a great day with Owen even in our rollercoastery moments. My clothes did not get as big of a reaction as yesterday but it was not dismissed either. We’ll see how tomorrow goes but I’m holding on to our victories today and his smiles. Remember that life is full of challenges but you are not alone. Some days feel overwhelming but sit back for a moment and breathe. Give yourself time to enjoy the light of a new dawn. Smiles to all and donut daze!
I'm Lynn Browder. Owen's Mommy. The best moments in time are when I get to see the smile on his face and that giggle come from his heart.